| Again another dreaded day passed me by. Naramdaman mo na ba yung feeling na parang may kulang sa araw mo na hindi mo alam kung ano at sadyang natapos na lang ang araw na ito na parang wala lang at walang silbi? I'm looking forward for something I really don't know that might spice up my day, but then again, what is so exciting when you have to do your lab journal, reaction paper on Rizal and study for a quiz on Math? It seems that I get pretty emotional whenever I let my mind fly for a while. I keep on reminiscing on the past that I cannot let go of. Most of the time, I'd rather be alone and I try to confront my inner demons, the ghosts of the past which keep on hunting my poor soul and because of this I'm neglecting that there are people around me trying to hold on to me to give me a helping hand. Here I am as I type again all these thoughts that keep bugging my brain as I try to find out what I am missing in this freakishly lonely day. Yeah, I know it is pretty dumb to get bummed and bored at the same time become emotional on a sunny Sunday. Maybe because I haven't gone to a Sunday mass for the past 3 years? Yeah, maybe that is the reason...well personally I have somehow lost faith of Him. I don't know why but maybe because He is bombarding me with all these stupid trials that is very inhuman in nature. Hahaha, a 17 year old boy dealing with problems of a 40 year old miserable-lonely guy. Somehow through all these unreasonable pain that I am experiencing, I am able to stand up again and reach for the stars, I know it isn't perfect yet it is very crappy in my own way but hey, atleast I am trying to provide me and my family a good life. I can't help but wonder how I will fair in my studies during the next semester. I know that the next semester is one of the things that is bugging me right now. I really don't know what my life would be the next semester. I can't help but cry when I think of it and soon me and my blockmates will take on seperate ways. Yeah it hurts a lot because I already found my family and college and it is so hurtful that I'll be leaving them in the next 4 or 5 weeks so. I thank Jason for giving me those life long values and for giving me a crash course on reality. I thank Cuyeg and Nico for giving me advices on my hopeless lovelife. I thank Ale,Kim,Sarah,Jacky,John,Loui,Jill,Baba,Den,Jess,Ira,Malia,Jaja,Les,Mary,Joy,Dhi,Caresse,Steph,Tony,Tracy,Cor,Kaymee,Ian,Jom,Derek,Sara,Lynn for being so patient with me and my corny,stupid and sometimes hurtful jokes. I really appreciate it when you guys laugh at my jokes because for one I know that someone cares to laugh at them. I thank Kizia,Ariane,Jino,Martin,Jana ( you owe me 300 pesos hahaha! ),Marcia, Clarence for being my friends even though we only had a limited time to share with each other, truly I will treasure all the memories with you people. I thank you Henrik "Niko" Batallones for giving me yellowpads, reminding us in the ygroups and for being a really good friend to me. Dude don't worry about making friends. It is natural and always be yourself that is why we like you. For Lau, hahahaha, you birdy bird you! Thanks for sending me all those jokes and qoutes, kahit na ba kunwari lang kitang girlfriend ay masaya ako at nakilala kita kasi napakamasayahin mong nilalang and you never fail to brighten up not only my day but anyones day. I'll say it again, " Ikaw ang champion ng puso ko!" hahaha. Thank you Sudoy for letting us hang out at your house and thank you for being so hospitable, we truly appreciate those little things that you do for us. Thank you Icka for letting me make fun of your close button and for introducing to us to your Dad and by the way tell your dad "thank you" for the coffee he gave us. Thank you Kevin for sharing with me your music and for exchanging with me some of those philosophical ideas of yours. Thank you Block LR-19 for letting me guys enjoy your company and friendship even just for a while. And for those who I've failed to mention, I'm to sleepy to recall each and everyone but nevertheless thank you. This was supposed to be just one those senseless entries and it suddenly turned out to be a thank you entry for the coolest block in DLSU. You made my stay in De La Salle University worthwhile. It's just a matter of weeks and we are off. I'll never forget each and everyone of you. You guys are the reason why De La Salle University is better than Ateneo De Manila University ( No pun intended ). I can't imagine what it would be like if I enrolled in another university. You guys make me a proud to be a Lasallian, it really pumps up my Animo Spirit whenever I'm with my block. No block, no college and definitely no university can compare to what I have experienced with you people. Indeed ANIMO LA SALLE!. Even though I blame the stupid priority and online enrollment for our parting, it still feels good to be at DLSU because of you people. I can still remember the LPEP and it is still fresh in my memories, I was so nervous to come to school because I wanted to make a good impression to my new classmates but then again I didn't need to try hard because my block was the best. We had chemistry and we blended so well with each other. Wow! Writing this entry suddenly made me feel so good. In the next few weeks I'll try to be as good as possible and try to change the wrong things about me so that I could enjoy our remaining days together. Again a big thanks to LR-19. |
